Shape my body and my mind – I am the Boss

Moving to a new city is nerve wracking. Moving to a new city that is known for its beautiful people, fancy cars, and the notion that every house has a pool in the back, is like first-day-of-second-grade-at-a-new-school nerve wracking. Within my first week of living in Orange County, I was presented with an awesome opportunity to spend a day working out with SHAPE Magazine and Los Angeles’ finest fitness trainers at the Body Shop pop-up event. Now, I don’t usually write about events because who really wants to read about something they couldn’t go to (hello, every blog post about award show season). But I’m writing about this special workout event for a few reasons:

  1. It was my first event as a blogger in the Orange County/ Los Angeles area
  2. It was my first big-name fitness event that actually sounded cool!
  3. Most importantly: I was surprised by my reaction upon arrival, I was nervous.

Of course, my first event as a blogger in Los Angeles and Orange County area would be a fitness event with SHAPE. Right? Fuck me. In all honesty, I hadn’t been spending as much time at the gym and I did indulge in an in-n-out burger past 9 PM more than a few times a week. Like hell would I miss out on a workout session from big-name trainers and SHAPE magazine. Also, part of the proceeds of my ticket goes to the non-profit Movemeant Foundation; so could I really say no? Exactly.

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Side Note: Karena and Katrina from Tone it Up were there, and my mom loves them so I couldn’t resist getting a video of them and sending it to her. Teehee 🙂

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not afraid to do workouts with other bloggers. In San Diego, I did yoga with dedicated beach yogis, hikes with girls who will do workout classes in celebration of things like birthdays etc. Most the time, these events are put on by small independent boutiques and the SDstylebloggers are a pretty tight-knit group so they were always more of a girls day than anything. SHAPE Magazine’s Body Shop event encompassed what I strive for, a community of people who just want to get up and move regardless of size. But is that what I was going to get by going? That was a question I asked myself as I passed the three slim women waiting at the elevator to let people up to the event. I guess I was going to find out.

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Then as I was doing a time lapse of my entrance to the event. I realized my nervousness came from insecurity. This is the third point I listed as to why I thought it was important to blog this event. I felt insecure in my fitness level and was nervous to be judged by my belief of the LA stereotype. As took a seat on their couch and looked around there definitely were some svelte bodies with the confidence to workout in just a sports bra and shorts, there were well toned women with cute tank tops with quirky fitness sayings on it like “eat clean, train dirty.”

As Nicki Minaj once said, “Where my all my fat ass bitches at?”

But there were other women. Women like me. I met a lovely group of middle aged women as we were listening in on the health seminar from Harley Pasternak. These ladies also had the same concerns that I did. That this event would be a bunch of beautiful fit energetic men and women, and we would be the blobs of mush that everyone was just waiting to pounce on to get us to sign up for their programs. We were all pleasantly surprised by open, non-judgemental and fun the workouts were. Kudos SHAPE, Movemeant Foundation, and all of its trainers.

Side Note: my biggest takeaway from Harley was that Kale, Acai berries and coconut oil have rocking PR teams. Juice cleanses are a complete Hollywood-induced waste of money. 

I did two classes with Brazilian butt-kicker Brett Hoebel to do both Brazilian yoga and Capoiera. Let’s just say I was sore for a week.

The moral of the story is, don’t let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. If I had let my insecurities convince me to opt out of the Body Shop pop-up event, I would have missed out on a kick-ass last day of being 24 years-old. Yes, this event was the day before my birthday. We all get nervous about the “what ifs.” What if they are all better than me. What if they are all skinnier, fitter, agile, faster than me. But in reality, the biggest what if is, what if I enjoy it and have fun? Let that drive you rather than the insecurities. If there is even a sliver of a chance you would enjoy it, take that chance.

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I am the Boss of my Body



  1. I love this post! I love going for hikes and going to the gym but I am seriously unfit so I felt so embarrassed and worried people would make fun of me. It took me til 20 but I finally joined a gym and now I exercise regularly and I am still unfit, but I am ten times happier and healthier for it. I think this post is so inspiring, being insecure is never a reason to pass up anything that has a chance of making you happy.

    1. It turned out better than i thought it would. I can’t believe i almost talked myself out of not going because my fitness level wasn’t the same as everyone i assumed would go. Kudos to you Sara. I avoided the gym for years then when i went to college it became my favorite this to do at night. Partially because i lived so far away from the main part of campus. But it really changed the way i viewed exercise.

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